Hey guys! How are y'all doin'? Yesterday was Valentines Day and it was remarkable for me -- not because of something that's related to romance and sweet nothings, but because it was a day of firsts.
Ever since it hit me that I'd be graduating soon, I realized that I still have a lot of things that I want to accomplish while I'm still in college. So what I did was to grab every opportunity present and make the most out of it while I still can. I know I should've done this long time ago, but the thought of actually entering a more serious life kinda scares me... It scared me enough to put aside all my fears and grab what's ahead of me.
So yesterday, I wasn't really able to have something "romantic" for myself. My boyfriend is busy at work, and he'd given me my fair share of Valentines last Sunday, when he visited me at home and surprised me with a chocolate cake (which my brother ate... well, that's another story). Going back, yesterday was not really sweet or mushy or anything that's synonymous to those words. It was more of a "me" time, which I think is still somewhat equivalent to love: self-love, that is.
First off, yesterday, I finally got to dye my hair. My parents do not really like the idea, but I consistently plead them about it and they never approved. So, I did it without their permission and just texted them about it a few moments later after I got my hair treated. I know it's kinda tricky, but HAHA, at least I get to finally do something that I wanted. Their response was okay though and there were no violent reactions. Besides, my hair color wasn't really that flashy so they won't notice it until it's under a light... or something.
Also, yesterday was my first time to host an event. I've been dying to try it ever since, but I was too scared that I might say the wrong words or I might not be good enough. Anyway, opportunity opened itself and I grabbed it immediately. I hosted for a university wide event, pretty big as a start off point for me, and I think I did great. Haha. I'm not bragging, but as a first timer, I think I did pretty fine on handling myself in front of the people. The hosting lasted for 3 hours, with several breaks in between to give way to the programs from other organizations, but it was hellovafun experience.
Lastly, this was the last valentines that I get to celebrate with my dorm mates and I was surprised that they actually gave me something. One of them gave me a chocolate and the other gave me a cream puff. I know it wasn't that much, but I really appreciate the effort that they've given. I was hoping my inaanaks would surprise me as well, but turns out, they're too busy with their own stuffs. Hahaha.
I did have a date yesterday and she's pretty awesome. Wanna know who it is? She goes by the name "myself". I bet you could use some date with her as well. :)
When I was still in high school, my friend and I used to memorize and then rap songs together. I do a lot of "fast" rapping back then and I did pretty great.
Few days ago, my boyfriend and I are talking about songs and how hard it is to rap those crazy tongue twisters that rappers do. He mentioned about Chris Brown's song, Look at Me Now, which has been pretty viral to those people who wanted to challenge themselves when it comes to rapping. Now, I'm pretty sure you know what's next to the story. Nawp, he didn't rap it in front of me, he instead challenged me to memorize the entire song and rap it in front of him. He gave me two weeks and the challenge actually starts today.
I thought it was pretty easy since I did it waaaaay back in high school, but then I realized how hard the words are. I mean, seriously, how do you say this phrase in less than a minute?
"Every time I come a nigga gotta set it, then I gotta go, and then I gotta get it
Then I gotta blow, and then I gotta shudder that any little thing that nigga think he be doing
'Cause it doesn't matter, 'cause I'm gonna dadadada"
Maybe this is my first run that's why I still find it hard to pronounce. I wish I could do the challenge though. :)
BTW, thanks for everyone who commented on my last post (about my best friend issues). I do think I'm over thinking about it, and I guess it's best if I'd just let it go. I mean, who knows, maybe I could find somebody who'd sincerely care about me someday.
That's about it. I'm gonna update you guys as soon as I find time. Ciao!
I've been wanting to update my blog for weeks, but I can't really find the time and the mood to tell the stories about what's happening in my life. I dunno, maybe because I'm too preoccupied with academics and I'd rather sleep during my free time than go online. Besides, I don't wanna bored you guys with the mundane things that are happening to me -- i.e. my boyfriend telling me that my thighs are starting to get humongous or about school works that are slowly eating me alive.
Anyway, life has been pretty rough. I've been dwelling on the same stuff, and has been giving more attention AGAIN to my best friend issues. I know, I've been blogging for years, have been ranting about that over and over, and I definitely know that it's getting tiring, but what can I do? I don't know how to move on from a broken friendship -- more of a friendship that's never reciprocated, that is -- even though I told myself a hundred times that I will try to get myself together when it comes to this issue, it seems to be coming back over and over. I don't know how to stop. It's like some addiction of some sort, some longing to have a best friend, or to have my best friend back. They've told me a hundred times to let it go, but I'd still end up trying to salvage the friendship that's never there.
Honestly speaking, I am tired myself of dealing with all these issues over and over again. I don't know if it's a smart move to actually tell my "best friend" about how I feel or just to let this thing go away, but nonetheless, the feeling of missing the bond that we used to have just kills me.
I haven't been around for the last couple of weeks due to my busy schedule. School works have been piling up like crazy, and it's really hard to keep up with my things to do and things to do not (haha. Whatta word)
Anyway, since I was too preoccupied this month, Imma give you a gist of the things that I had. I'll be summing it up even though it's not really the end of January, just because I don't think I'll have the time again after this. I'll try to update as much as I could though (just what I always say. Hihi!).
This month, I've experienced a lot of firsts (and lasts, I guess), and I think it's worth sharing. So, with no more further adieu, here it goes:
My first legit inaanak/Godson - It was a pretty memorable experience, having the kid in my arms and you know, having this notion that you're somewhat a grown up, because I've been trusted to have a godson already. I don't know if that really made sense, but nawh. I think I'll be grasping that idea anyway.
My first job offer of some sort - I received a call a week ago from Summit Media, asking me if I would like to apply as a freelancer for them. Of course, I immediately said yes and sent in my resume through their e-mail. I was also asked by my mom's colleague who'll be starting up an architecture firm of some sort to be their writer-ish and events planner as well. She's kinda certain that she'll hire me, which is pretty scary but definitely nice. It's overwhelming and heart warming that I got to have offers even though I still have to crawl for my graduation this April. I hope I won't be jinxed or something. Haha!
The first time I was able to call myself a legit biker - A few months back, my dad used to give me biking lessons (since I'm such a sucker that I wasn't really able to learn how to ride a bike when I was a kid). After a few days, I was finally advancing but I decided to stop. My neighbor told me that "ang galing na ah. Marunong na mag-bike" (wow, you're learning how to ride a bike -- I dunno if this is the accurate translation. Haha), and I hate being noticed for some reason I don't really know. After that, I never dared to ride a bike in our street anymore. This January, my dorm mates and I decided to have some biking lessons 101 for me and for another friend who doesn't really know how to ride a bike. To my surprise, I was able to run a few meters, and in a few minutes, I was able to legitimately ride a bike. Hurray!
The first time I flew a flying lantern - Last week, a fund raising activity for the Sendong Victims was held in our campus. They sell flying lanterns and together with the other people who would participate, we would be flying our lanterns at the school grounds. It was really fun, and with the background music from the string ensemble of our school, it was just as magical as the one in Tangled. It made me realize that when I die, I want to have a flying lantern event dedicated for me. Hahaha. Sorry, I'm kinda morbid like that.
My last inaanak for our org - If you're applying for an organization in our campus, you'd most likely encounter the ninang/ninong stuff, where you'll have to have sponsors who will guide you through the process. I already have one inaanak, and the upcoming batch, they gave me another one. I hope we'd have enough bonding just like the first one. :)
My last field trip and my first time at Baguio - My room mate and I are going to Baguio for a field trip this coming weekend (27-29). I'm pretty hyped with what will happen, and excited that I'll be FINALLY stepping my foot at Baguio. I hope the trip would be awesome! :D
My last "first day" - Since I'm about to graduate soon (I hope!), this January, I was able to have my last first day. It just made me realize a lot of things -- that I'm already grown up, that I'll be finally leaving a place that I've learned to love soon enough and that I have to make the most out of it.
January seems to be a blast. I hope yours is awesome too! I hope to update after my trip at Baguio, so I could share all the awesomeness (and the not-so-awesome ones) of my adventure. Have a good day everybody! And Kung Hei Fat Choi!
In no particular order, here are some of the highlights of my 2011. Well, there are a lot of things to be thankful for, and that's what I'm going to highlight with this post. :)
Had my dream internship with FHM Philippines. It was one awesome summer, being able to work in a place where I've always dreamed of, and being able to take part on creating an issue of my boyfriend's favorite magazine. Haha.
Superb practicum experience! Opportunities of a lifetime.
My term as the org's P.R.O. just ended. Although it was really a big relief that I'm no longer an officer of the organization, I must admit I still kinda missed the work load. But still, I'm really thankful for the free time that this had given me.
Awesome-est 19th birthday. Received Roger (my cute pig stuff toy) and a bouquet of flowers from boyfriend. I was also able to celebrate it with the people who are really close to my heart.
Had my chance of performing on some school events, and then...
Gave up dancing for the rest of my college life. It was one of the biggest decisions of 2011, finally giving up my first love to give way for more important things -- i.e. happiness, sleep, life after school and more time for academics. Hello, graduation.
Finally becoming a part of socio-cultural committee for my organization. It took me almost two years to finally let go of pubcom and embrace another committee. A committee I've learned to love a few years back.
4th anniversary celebration with boyfriend. AWESOME, AWESOME, AWESOME! Enough said.
Got to bond with my family more this 2011. Especially this Christmas break. We were able to go out and talk more often. :)
So, basically, that's about it. I won't go so much into the specifics, but then again, I am very thankful for this year. It was a bumpy ride, and I must admit, more months are spent facing challenges than celebrating life. But then again, everything comes for a reason, and I believe that these things came into my life to make me a stronger and a better person.
