Maybe the reason why I tend to be depressed most of the time is because I lack company. I could say that I'm not really good at being alone. Times that spent with myself are times to contemplate on things -- on sad things most of the time. It might be the fact that everything that I don't have dawns into me when I'm alone -- lack of best friend, lack of qualities that would make me special and all that shit. As much as I wanted to NOT think about them, it just comes back all the time, and at the end of the day, all I have is my boyfriend, who's miles away from me, talking to me non-stop just to make me feel better. I know, I'm lucky I have someone like him, someone who never stopped caring about me, although I could be very tiresome already. I do feel happy when he's around, although we don't see each other that often because of the lack of time and distance. I study at the south, he works somewhere in the north, which totally sucks. Takes us 2 hours to meet at a certain place, most of the time at Caloocan, just so we could spent an hour or two together. It's nice that I have him, but it would be much, much nicer if I could be with him most of the time. After class, on the afternoons, or at dinner. It just sucks that I have to miss him every single day. Le sigh~

Perks of us being away would be the excitement that we feel every time we'd get to see each other. Oh well.